I do not exist
I'm a shadow in this world
I belong with the dead
Or am I among them now
I cannot feel myself
I have been to hell
seen the fires and flames
and the demons chased me back
So I could never live in peace
Invisibly tortured in life
Madness, delusions, self loathing and self destructing
I am forever encased in my own mind
My prison, my hell, my end, my misery
My endless agony, my nightmare, my relief
Today I talked with god
And he said that I am gone
Lost forever
Satan embraced me tight
Set a razor in my hand
Come to me child
You were always mine to have
Betrayed by the sun
Take my hand and walk with me
Through the fiery planes of death
Madness, delusions, self loathing and self destructing
I am forever encased in my own mind
My prison, my hell, my end, my misery
My endless agony, my nightmare, my relief
I am blessed with my own curse
I escape in what I create
I talk with demons
I talk with god
I am shadow I am anguish
I loathe my life I want to die
I can escape I can not leave
I meet my end by my own hand
I feel shame it's in vain
Blood runs warm clothes it soaks
Silence roams bringing hope
Peace is close I'm almost home
Voices call my name
I can never shut them out
They make me scream
And they laugh at my pain
Do they feel what I feel
I long to end
Their endless mumbling talks
Push the razor in my veins
That seems to do the work
They are the ones that scream
Madness, delusions, self loathing and self destructing
I am forever encased in my own mind
My prison, my hell, my end, my misery
My endless agony, my nightmare, my relief
I am blessed with my own curse
I escape in what I create
I talk with demons
I talk with god
I am shadow I am anguish
I loathe my life I want to die
I can escape I can not leave
I meet my end by my own hand
I feel shame it's in vain
Blood runs warm clothes it soaks
Silence roams bringing hope
Peace is close i'm almost home
